wOw... So LoNg NvR wRiTe Le...

haha... since nov... nw free then write lo... watever happen tis few weeks... his birthday juz over a few dAys ago... it is weird... starting he ask mi wan go his bbq or chalet anot then i v happy... i didnt go... nt fre ma... but sent him greeting he nvr reply... goodnite msg oso nvr reply... hw can dat b... haiz... dunno wat happen lei... then sat i go tgcc... of course is like another boring day... go east coast play le nowhere to go then go lo... c him le... but he nvr even look at mi... nvr even tok to mi... i wonder y... u realli give mi many prob... pple ask mi to 4get but i juz canot lei... dunno y... i will try la... coz no use waiting 4 u... n i tink hao ma bu chi hui tou cao... i admire u... u r the first guy whom i tink will make mi happy n safe... n plays my favourite bball... hehe... is like my dream guy lo... but dun hav the fate to b together... wat 4 forcing... can oni admire u ba... frenz 4ever oso... in my mind u hav all the gd points... u r helpful n frenly... juz love u... but then u dun love mi le... i noe... so no choice ma... i nw actually nt v desperate le... dat time dat 2 gal who help mi find my wallet de... jasmine n simin... i dunno they good anot... but juz find dat they got their own character n they help mi b4... the most important is they hate lorrian... haha... same as mi... dat shuyuan tink he who... nvm... dun care abt them... but even till nw i will tink of the cute lianfa... haha... can c him in skol... but nvr try tokin to him le... i feel like but i dun dare... nxt yr ur last yr... r we able to tok??? haiz... he nxt yr oso last yr le... wish him good luck ba...

SaD sAd SaD...

haiz... i almost cried juz nw... i tot i will lose contact wif him 4ever... i cant find him in frenster... i tot he blocked mi... omg... i cant control myself le... suddenly i feel so scared... hw i hope u dun leave me... u make me miss u so much... yesterday msg halfway u nvr reply... today c u then u like dunno mi... make me feel so sad man... i realli feel like crying le... today go tgcc... i suddenly tink abt my existence... make me so confused... marcus,monkey... almost everybody was like nt happy to c mi lo... i finally decided to go dere less le... then i ask debbie n chester to let mi take their picture... i was so happy dat they agreed... thursday i was still happy dat he msg mi... but nw i dun tink so le... wan take back my word le... jasper... u alwaz the most handsome... i alwaz love u... although ur love 4 mi has oredi changed... although i noe we r impossible le... all the best to u... one day if i take back my word i m sure dat u will b happy ba... haiz... sobx...

HaPpY oR sAd LeI???

yesterday i oredi confirm wat huimin say le... it is true... i didn't cry... a little sad... but dunno y... i promise myself nxt time if i go tgcc n c him,i will tok to him or at least say hi to him... i made it!!! haha... yesterday i went dere... saw him nvr tok much... oni tok to alex... but oso like frens lo... more than enough... when i go home,i say bye to him... it is realli more than enough... i m happy dat we r still frens... hehe... he yesterday sent mi goodnite msg... isn't it a good start... i sent back n ask him abt his results... but i doubt he will reply... but alrit la... at least i got 2 msg of his to save... haha... ltr goin guzheng le... scare scare sia... sure die de... haiz... who can save mi... mi n eddie still nt as good... nvm... i guess tis quarrel wun last long de... c first ba... aft i noe dat thing is true,i realli dunno hw i feel... but dat is oso good... my mind is juz blank... frm v complicated to v peace n clear... i noe wat to do... n i nvr tink of BGR le... dunno y... i suddenly feel dat i dun like anybody... i m nt desperate anymore... mayb bcoz dun hav him in my mind realli make me feel relax... haha... dat is good oso la...

BaCk FrM cHaLeT!!!

wow... i m back!!! at the chalet,i was sad at times n happy at times... basically,juz fun... haha... throw eddie aside... he can live without me... yongjie... a new one... i was tinkin whether i like him... haiz... although he has a foul mouth n alwaz say mi... we like to bicker... i still v impress wif him... the way he played the daytona... wow... cool man... but i oso noe my chance is nt big... i scare breakin jason's heart oso... hope he wun b so desperate... b4 the chalet huimin msg mi n say she got something to tell mi regarding jasper... omg... i was so curious... but she say too long le... meet le then say... haiz... sad man... n she keep showing me dat she is v happy... as if he like her... scare sia... nw another confusion... jasper or yongjie... haiz... at pasir ris,i saw priscilla,irene,jeanette n my cousin... wow... dun expect to c them dere lo... another strange thing... hw can dat b possible... jasper add mi in msn??? issit him??? but he nvr add mi in frenster... unless is realli dat guy whom i type in dat same email... wif him n nt jasper...

YoZ... hOlidAy MaN!!!

Haiyo... although it is a holiday but it dun seems so... tons of homework sia... cant even enjoy... the oni thing special tis holiday is i m going to a chalet... n it is tml... until wed... cool man... hope i can relax a bit... aft dat i hav to study n do homework le... sianz... :( but tink i can cope la... sometimes i find dat more homework is oso betta la... busy... betta than nth to do n anyhw tink... liddat oso v sian lo... haiz... nw i realli dunno who i love... he or HE... the feelings 4 HE is oredi v different le... nt like last time... tink of him then cry... so strong man... i saw him on i tink 23 of oct... but hor... juz a little happy lo... nth realli special la... nw i oso cant cry 4 him le... can say 4got le ba... tink it is over le... the oni thing i cant accept is dat i love he... hw can dat b... the feelings is weird... when he dun hav stead i tink i love him... but when he hav,i tink i dun love him le... dunno y... i realli dunno... i even tot dat he treat me as spare tyre... coz when he got stead he nvr find me le... but dat is natural... he shld acc his stead more than me ma... dat is alrit ma... but i dunno y care so much lo... juz cant treat him as frens... as in i will get angry easily... like when he nvr find me... we r best fren... realli best frens... hope we can b alwaz liddat ba... i dunno hw he feel 4 me... but i dun dare to say out... i scare in the end i love someone else... i scare he wun treat me the same as last time... i scare he avoid me... i wun say out... coz i dun even noe wat i tinkin... i realli dunno... i juz hope we can b best fren ever... as in i love he or HE... i tink i hav to leave it behind le...

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