SaD sAd SaD...

haiz... i almost cried juz nw... i tot i will lose contact wif him 4ever... i cant find him in frenster... i tot he blocked mi... omg... i cant control myself le... suddenly i feel so scared... hw i hope u dun leave me... u make me miss u so much... yesterday msg halfway u nvr reply... today c u then u like dunno mi... make me feel so sad man... i realli feel like crying le... today go tgcc... i suddenly tink abt my existence... make me so confused... marcus,monkey... almost everybody was like nt happy to c mi lo... i finally decided to go dere less le... then i ask debbie n chester to let mi take their picture... i was so happy dat they agreed... thursday i was still happy dat he msg mi... but nw i dun tink so le... wan take back my word le... jasper... u alwaz the most handsome... i alwaz love u... although ur love 4 mi has oredi changed... although i noe we r impossible le... all the best to u... one day if i take back my word i m sure dat u will b happy ba... haiz... sobx...

HaPpY oR sAd LeI???

yesterday i oredi confirm wat huimin say le... it is true... i didn't cry... a little sad... but dunno y... i promise myself nxt time if i go tgcc n c him,i will tok to him or at least say hi to him... i made it!!! haha... yesterday i went dere... saw him nvr tok much... oni tok to alex... but oso like frens lo... more than enough... when i go home,i say bye to him... it is realli more than enough... i m happy dat we r still frens... hehe... he yesterday sent mi goodnite msg... isn't it a good start... i sent back n ask him abt his results... but i doubt he will reply... but alrit la... at least i got 2 msg of his to save... haha... ltr goin guzheng le... scare scare sia... sure die de... haiz... who can save mi... mi n eddie still nt as good... nvm... i guess tis quarrel wun last long de... c first ba... aft i noe dat thing is true,i realli dunno hw i feel... but dat is oso good... my mind is juz blank... frm v complicated to v peace n clear... i noe wat to do... n i nvr tink of BGR le... dunno y... i suddenly feel dat i dun like anybody... i m nt desperate anymore... mayb bcoz dun hav him in my mind realli make me feel relax... haha... dat is good oso la...

BaCk FrM cHaLeT!!!

wow... i m back!!! at the chalet,i was sad at times n happy at times... basically,juz fun... haha... throw eddie aside... he can live without me... yongjie... a new one... i was tinkin whether i like him... haiz... although he has a foul mouth n alwaz say mi... we like to bicker... i still v impress wif him... the way he played the daytona... wow... cool man... but i oso noe my chance is nt big... i scare breakin jason's heart oso... hope he wun b so desperate... b4 the chalet huimin msg mi n say she got something to tell mi regarding jasper... omg... i was so curious... but she say too long le... meet le then say... haiz... sad man... n she keep showing me dat she is v happy... as if he like her... scare sia... nw another confusion... jasper or yongjie... haiz... at pasir ris,i saw priscilla,irene,jeanette n my cousin... wow... dun expect to c them dere lo... another strange thing... hw can dat b possible... jasper add mi in msn??? issit him??? but he nvr add mi in frenster... unless is realli dat guy whom i type in dat same email... wif him n nt jasper...